if i were a boy

the clown heart..so it is..this is exactly what i felt just now..on the verge of pulling myself out..but how would i be able to do it..only GOD knows..maybe its time for me to let go..

you dont listen to her,
you dont care how it hurts,
until you lose the one you wanted,
cause you're taking her for granted,
and everything you had got destroyed,
but you're just a boy..

should you be forgiven just because you're boy?
everyone have their own ego,their own temper.How you want to control it,it depends..sometimes you take it positively and only think you're doing it for the best when you caught in that moment or situation..on the other side,if you do the contractary,you tend to hurt people without you're realizing it..
its not that i choose to be away..its not that i choose to be this way..but the happiness..the smiles..feels like its long gone..and i need to get back..it is not slowly vanished as you said..but sometimes be apart for a little while is good to give both a chance to think back what had happened..there would be no one that could replace you..but whatever awaits for us near in the future..we never know..
the new year are coming..i just hope only wonderful things would be waiting for me..for what i've been going through this year,it wasnt that pleasurable year i must say..the roallercoaster is on off mode now..toast for the new year..and awal muharram..lets hope for the better to all of us!!